Goodbye, Sweet Baby Girl.

It is with an extremely broken heart, and many tears, that I am writing this post.  We made the heart wrenching decision to end Lola's pain and said goodbye to the sweetest girl in the world last night.

Lola ~ Forever our Baby Girl
2002 ~ 2015

Lola is, was, one in a million.  Sure, I'm the crazy dog lady and I love all dogs, but truly... she was very, very special and everyone she came into contact with thought so as well (especially our vet).  Lola had a personality like no other, and a heart of gold.  She loved everyone and everything. She made friends everywhere she went, instantly becoming the center of attention. Lola was so full of love and wanted nothing more than to be with and please her humans.

She loved her siblings as much as they loved her.  I know their hearts are breaking as well, and I can only hope we can comfort them the way they comfort us.

  

She loved romping in the snow, and her last storm was almost as special as she was.  It breaks my heart that she was not able to run and play in the 30" or so that we received, but she did enjoy a little stroll with her Daddy.

I'm going to miss her snuggles and kisses immensely - she knew how to comfort and make any bad situation better.  At night, when I would stretch out on the couch to watch TV, she would climb up and lie down behind me - spooning, so to speak.  She hadn't been able to do that these past few difficult weeks and I can't even begin to tell you how much I missed those bonding Mommy & me moments. 

Coming home is never going to be the same. Lola won't be there to greet me at the top of the stairs, toy in mouth.  She'd done that since she was a youngster and it always made us laugh... no matter which of her humans was coming home, she'd go and grab a favorite toy and meet us at the top of the stairs (or sometimes down by the door if she was extra antsy to kiss us).  If we brought home any shopping bags, she'd set her toy down so she could inspect the bags... I'd like to think she was making sure there was nothing entering the house that could harm her humans, but I know she was really just looking to grab herself a yogurt or banana. 

I will never understand why the sweetest girl in the world had to endure such a horrific, aggressive cancer.  Life is not fair.  Cancer sucks.  The holes in our hearts are immense. 

Rest in Peace, sweet baby girl.  We love you and miss you greatly.